Yeah, Yukyo, is my name on every other forum except this one, I've been meaning to getting it changed for a while and I have noted the mods, but perhaps my reason for changing wasn't a very good one.
Anyway, my first blog.
Anyway, my first blog.
What it takes to be human...
Posted November 6th, 2011 at 08:56 AM by Old Ape Face
“I don’t believe in angels but I do believe there’s a constant struggle between light and dark in the world. Who knows, maybe Brother Sam is right. Maybe sometimes the light can win out. In my experience, darkness usually prevails.” –Dexter
In my experience people don't want to hear glory, they want to hear strife and the damnation of someone else, or whatever makes them feel important and special. Even if they deny it, people are always going to go for whatever betters them, even if it helps out someone else in return.
People aren't special, we all come from the same tree, we just take different roots and prod along till we find exactly what we want from the world. Of course not every seed is created the same, that's what makes each path different. Whether it be friends, a job, money, a house, talent, fame, famine, we all do what our minds provide us with and eventually accept who we are as humans.
Nothing we do is guaranteed to go as planned, and we make up for it by taking it out on someone else most of the time, or we try to change the world so it best suits our needs.
Life isn't a choice it's a gift. Do not imagine that people are all born in a tight nit group from place to place. Everyone has their own mind their own body, their own initiative. What they do is based on who they live with and where they come from, but they all still have a will to do whatever they desire, even if it's morally incorrect to some people.
I don't expect people to understand me, and I don't expect people to agree, but I have spent a lot of my time thinking about what life really is. If you don't like it, you can always commit suicide.
In my experience people don't want to hear glory, they want to hear strife and the damnation of someone else, or whatever makes them feel important and special. Even if they deny it, people are always going to go for whatever betters them, even if it helps out someone else in return.
People aren't special, we all come from the same tree, we just take different roots and prod along till we find exactly what we want from the world. Of course not every seed is created the same, that's what makes each path different. Whether it be friends, a job, money, a house, talent, fame, famine, we all do what our minds provide us with and eventually accept who we are as humans.
Nothing we do is guaranteed to go as planned, and we make up for it by taking it out on someone else most of the time, or we try to change the world so it best suits our needs.
Life isn't a choice it's a gift. Do not imagine that people are all born in a tight nit group from place to place. Everyone has their own mind their own body, their own initiative. What they do is based on who they live with and where they come from, but they all still have a will to do whatever they desire, even if it's morally incorrect to some people.
I don't expect people to understand me, and I don't expect people to agree, but I have spent a lot of my time thinking about what life really is. If you don't like it, you can always commit suicide.
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first..suicide is a choice a bad one and life is about choices..the hard thing is..am i making the right choice?..
sometimes people prefer simple choices than the hard ones..while the hard one would make their life better...yes i agree life is a gift but you can choose between take it or leave it..just like you said about suicide...
it's not easy..and we were created to fight...that's why we are living..those who committed suicide made wrong choices and too lazy to struggle and live....
Posted November 6th, 2011 at 12:43 PM by Taleen 
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I like the blog BTW..
Posted November 6th, 2011 at 12:44 PM by Taleen
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My point is, you can do whatever you like, but few good things in life happen from just expecting them to be handed to you on a silver platter.
Suicide can be instant, and at times painless depending on how it's done. It might not be a good choice, in fact it's a rather pathetic choice, even if it seems like the only choice to go for some people, but it's a path nonetheless.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 12:50 PM by Old Ape Face
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yes..that's right...
but suicide maybe is painless for the person who commit it but it's pain for others around him who loved and cared...and even if that person hasn't got those...he had another way to find a reason for life and ..waste it...
would you ever think about suicide?Posted November 6th, 2011 at 01:21 PM by Taleen
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I have actually, but then I realized, no matter how much I screw up, there will always be someone there to appreciate the hard work I put in to make me the person I am.
The little things that make me trip are nothing compared to the greater goal. Even if I don't succeed in the path I want to go, I will still be working hard to achieve it.
Cutting myself short on a dream that I may never have is pathetic, and if I make it out alive and on top I will have what I always wanted.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 02:43 PM by Old Ape Face
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As a 9-time suicide survivor, I have to say that it's certainly not 'easy.' Even in that last second, there's doubt and fear. Also, it's difficult for people who haven't been there, to understand. Within that time, it feels like the most rational thing in the world, despite what others say. It doesn't matter what others feel or how stupid they think it is, because the only thing going through one's mind is eliminating one's immediate pain. In my case, it was accompanied by depression and the reality that I'm worthless, which has been proven to me time and time again. You have to consider the fact that not all of us can be strong stable-minded individuals. That's only in a perfect world. We can only speak from our own paths and experiences.
Posted November 6th, 2011 at 03:49 PM by Grimhouse Diva
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Strength takes time, possibly the right motivation, I always grew up in the shadows away from where I knew the pain would come from. Cowardly yeah I ran and hid instead of faced my fears.
Perhaps I don't have a good point of view, I had it made, and still have it made. I really can't see anything going off track in my life except maybe some humiliation from failing, but that's the kind of pain I ran and hid from in my past. Perhaps I'm just over coming that fear now.
Physically I wasn't even able to carry my own weight on my back. I spoke to no one openly, emotionally I stood out of the lime light keeping my fears on hold till I could get a better stand on them.
I suppose I wouldn't have the firm grasp to stand away from my fears if I had to face them every day. Maybe I would have been stronger if I did.
I have never made the attempt for suicide, I thought of how I would do it, but every time it came to me I just felt the acceptance of who I was, and now I feel like there's no obstacle I can't overcome that makes suicide pathetic.
I respect those who do come out of their fears and become stronger becuase of them. That's why I turn to metal, a lot of those guys have had something bad happen in their lives, that forced them to think a certain way. I'll never see anything as bad as they have, but I keep it in my head that it could have been a lot worse for me.
I consider myself lucky in that respect and I guess I let a little too much pride hang over that luck. Pride is natural, pride is the thing that keeps humanity alive. I guess I owe it to pride for keeping me alive.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 04:19 PM by Old Ape Face
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And that's you.
It should be noted that everyone handles pain differently. For some of us, it's like being trapped in a well every day. You can't get out of the well, but you do whatever you can to occupy time inside that well.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 04:50 PM by Grimhouse Diva
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I'm sure you could find a way out of that well.
If it's narrow you could brace yourself against the walls and monkey you way up.
If it's too wide, you better know how to rock clime.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 05:07 PM by Old Ape Face
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Maybe. If I had a good enough reason to.
Rather than this being about a comfort zone, it's more based on the fact that I might be afraid to get out of the well since I've been there for 14 years. It would be like losing my identity.
It's like the old man from Shawshank Redemption who couldn't adjust to the world after being in prison for so long, and ultimately hung himself.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 05:21 PM by Grimhouse Diva
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Scars do eventually heal and fade away, depending on how deep they are.
But the first step is usually the hardest to make, but it takes strength to maintain that first step.
There are always other ways around it though, occupying your time with the essentials to survive can help take your mind off the thing that hurts you the hardest.Posted November 6th, 2011 at 05:36 PM by Old Ape Face
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