What the ****?
Yeah, it's that time of the month again.....
So yeah, I happened to be wasting all this time on my recreational activities that I've been falling behind in school to the point that Mr. Hill told me a few days ago that if I didn't start earning credits by the end of the week, I'd be sent back to RIM, the place that drove me to the brink of the core of my very sanity itself and made the last few years of my life a living ****ing hell but the reason why Hill wants to send me back now is because I got more credits there and decent enough grades to keep up with the rest of the class, oh god how I despise them so ****ing much..........
But yeah, if I do go back, I'll end up having to face the kids who drove me to insanity and believe me, I've tried my absolute hardest to put those **** kicking mother****ers behind me and try to move on but if I do end up seeing them again, I guess I'll have no choice but to try to forgive them for how they were and hopefully move on with my life but others aren't as forgiving as I so if I try to put what happened behind me, they'll try to bring it back up to throw me back down to the pariah status I was cursed with so long ago.
TBH, I wonder how kids my age can be so happy sometimes, I guess it's the possibility that they don't beat themselves up as badly as I do to myself but I honestly don't get it and I don't think I ever will anytime soon.
I'm such a goddamn coward, I thought I would be better than this by now, honestly.
There was other stuff that I was gonna say too but I'm too tired ATM and I can't think all that straight right now so yeah.....
So yeah, I happened to be wasting all this time on my recreational activities that I've been falling behind in school to the point that Mr. Hill told me a few days ago that if I didn't start earning credits by the end of the week, I'd be sent back to RIM, the place that drove me to the brink of the core of my very sanity itself and made the last few years of my life a living ****ing hell but the reason why Hill wants to send me back now is because I got more credits there and decent enough grades to keep up with the rest of the class, oh god how I despise them so ****ing much..........
But yeah, if I do go back, I'll end up having to face the kids who drove me to insanity and believe me, I've tried my absolute hardest to put those **** kicking mother****ers behind me and try to move on but if I do end up seeing them again, I guess I'll have no choice but to try to forgive them for how they were and hopefully move on with my life but others aren't as forgiving as I so if I try to put what happened behind me, they'll try to bring it back up to throw me back down to the pariah status I was cursed with so long ago.
TBH, I wonder how kids my age can be so happy sometimes, I guess it's the possibility that they don't beat themselves up as badly as I do to myself but I honestly don't get it and I don't think I ever will anytime soon.
I'm such a goddamn coward, I thought I would be better than this by now, honestly.
There was other stuff that I was gonna say too but I'm too tired ATM and I can't think all that straight right now so yeah.....
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Sorry to hear that Ven. By the way what is RIM?Posted May 19th, 2011 at 12:34 AM by Sora N 
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Hey Venitas, sorry for the bad news, hope everything works out for you this time.Posted May 19th, 2011 at 01:33 PM by Arch-Defender
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RIM was the name of my old high school that I went back to in 2008-2009Quote:Originally Posted by Sora N
By the way what is RIM?
I'd do anything to forget those days TBH.Posted May 19th, 2011 at 02:12 PM by Reven
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